
But love never looked like this. Pools of blood beading the dirt beneath the cross. A heavy spike through the feet. Ribs protruding against the skin. Open wounds bothered by flies. Eyes swollen with fever. Hair matted from this morning's thorns. Hands raided to God on splintered wood. A slump torso, dangling from impaled wrists like some grotesque pendant.
This is what his mother sees as she bares her heart to the hilt of that cruel, Roman sword. It is more than a mother can bear. But somehow she does. Largely because of the man standing beside her, steadying her...John, the disciple Jesus loves. Arm in arm, the two people Jesus loves the most in the world. They were never closer to each other than they are now, at this very moment.
They hear Jesus groan as he raises his head. He shapes his farewell with a tongue that is parched and lips that are split. John leads Mary closer to spare Jesus the strain, for her son has so much to tell her:
"Thank you for everything...I owe you so much...you've been as dear a mother as anyone could ask for."
But the spasms in his chest are more frequent, and those feelings go unspoken. Jesus pushes on the spike and struggles to fill his lungs. The pain is excruciating. His words come at great effort.
"Dear woman, here is your son."
She looks to John and clutches his arm as fresh wells of tears pool in her eyes. Her lips squeeze out a tremble smile.
"John, here is your mother."

The disciple nods as he bites his lips to fight back the emotion. That is all that is said. for an intimate moment they behold the one they love so much. Then Jesus slumps again, his heavy eyes closing.
Suddenly, Mary realizes, "HE is about his Father's business."
She prays to that Father, prays that death would come quickly to her son. No, their son. For both would lose a child today. Both would bear the blade in their breast.
Yet in spite of her grief, in spite of the cold steel sheathed in her heart, she is standing near the cross. She can't bear to watch. But she can't bear to turn away either. She is there. Standing by her son. As any mother would.
She was there when he came into this world. She would be there when he left it. She was there when he was pushed through another painful passage, returning him to the arms of his Farther.
A personal prayer:
Dear Man of Sorrows,
Who, with the weight of your body pulling against those nails and the weight of the world's sin pulling against your soul, thought more of the sorrow of others than your own.
Who was such a compelling commentary on the only commandment with a promise, all the while knowing that for you that promise would be withheld.
who was stripped of everything, yet still found so much to give: to your executioners, forgiveness; to a thief, paradise; to your mother, a son.
Grant us the grace, O Lord, that we would never forget how you rose above your forsakenness to make sure your mother would not be forsaken. What an example of selfless love. What an example of everything a son should be.
Father, keep us from ever wandering far from the foot of that cross. For that is the fountain where love is most pure.
That is where we are cleansed, not only from our sin but from our pettiness. That is where we are closest to you. That is where we are closest to those who love you. Bring us there daily, Lord. That is where love is. And that is where we need to be.
Andre L. Burton
Former, USA East
Greater New York Division