Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.
The Assigning of the Call
I
now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking
in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church… —Colossians
1:24
We
take our own spiritual consecration and try to make it into a call of God, but
when we get right with Him He brushes all this aside. Then He gives us a
tremendous, riveting pain to fasten our attention on something that we never
even dreamed could be His call for us. And for one radiant, flashing moment we
see His purpose, and we say, “Here am I! Send me” (Isaiah 6:8).
This
call has nothing to do with personal sanctification, but with being made broken
bread and poured-out wine. Yet God can never make us into wine if we object to
the fingers He chooses to use to crush us. We say, “If God would only use His
own fingers, and make me broken bread and poured-out wine in a special way,
then I wouldn’t object!” But when He uses someone we dislike, or some set of
circumstances to which we said we would never submit, to crush us, then we
object. Yet we must never try to choose the place of our own martyrdom. If we
are ever going to be made into wine, we will have to be crushed—you cannot
drink grapes. Grapes become wine only when they have been squeezed.
I
wonder what finger and thumb God has been using to squeeze you? Have you been
as hard as a marble and escaped? If you are not ripe yet, and if God had
squeezed you anyway, the wine produced would have been remarkably bitter.
To be
a holy person means that the elements of our natural life experience the very
presence of God as they are providentially broken in His service. We have to be
placed into God and brought into agreement with Him before we can be broken
bread in His hands. Stay right with God and let Him do as He likes, and you
will find that He is producing the kind of bread and wine that will benefit His
other children.