
This got me to thinking about prayer and wondering, what are your first recollections of praying?
I think for me it is the memory of my Mum kneeling at the side of my bed, singing, praying and encouraging me to thank God for the day and to ask Him to bless those I knew and loved. I don't think I can have been three at the time but am left with memories of a happy time shared together at the end of the day.
I remember my Nan almost constantly singing or humming to herself as she went around doing ordinary, every day things. The songs she sang more often than not were prayer choruses from the back of our SA song book. 'Prayer gently lifts me to highest Heaven' seemed to be one of her favourites and she always seemed to sing it with a beautiful, gentle expression on her face and I soon realised she was communing with her God and almost being transported to highest Heaven in those moments. Nan would also leave little notes she had written all over her flat. Very often those notes would be a prayer chorus she had written out and put a date on the note. One of the things I treasure of my Nan's is one such note as she had written: 'All my days and all my hours ... shall be Thine dear Lord' There was nothing special about my Nan in the world's terms. But her simple, childlike faith still challenges and encourages me today. Never in a milion years would she have done anything publically, prayed or testified ... but she certainly prayed and lived her testimony!
Many of you will know I was about five when I was first taken to the Salvation Army by my Nan and a few years later I remember being in 'the big Sunday School' so I must have been more than seven years old, it was Decision Sunday, we had been singing the chorus: 'Teach me how to love Thee. Teach me how to pray' and the brother-in-law (David Raynor) of our YPSM (David Harlow - person in charge of our Sunday School) came in that day and talked to us about how to pray. He used the letters of the word PRAY and gave them to us as a guideline.
P - Praise
R - Repent
A - Ask (for others)
Y - Ask (for yourself)
Since then, others have shared with me the concept of ACTS
A - Adoration
C - Confession
T - Thanksgiving
S - Supplication
But if I am honest, more often than not in my own personal devotions I return to the model I was given as a very young child.
As I grew older, a teenager, still living at home. I can think back to a few occasions when I had knelt at the mercy seat in our hall at Southport, returning home and almost continuing the prayer as I knelt beside my bed. Mum, once came in and asked if I wanted her to pray with me ... I did ... and she did. As we knelt together and prayed we sang too, almost like the old days when she had sung prayers with me as a child. It was almost as if we didn't quite know how to put into words our thoughts and feelings but singing the songs others had penned, helped us to express our heartfelt prayers.
In recent years my understanding and expression of prayer has somewhat changed. There are times when my prayer is nothing more than simply allowing myself to 'Be still' in the presence of God and consciously sense His nearness. It is then I discover 'It's in the stillness that You touch me and show me just how much You care and as my heart fills with Your wonder, I know that You are always there.'

I have also discovered the joys of journalling and I am delighted to know that the young people in our Sunday School are encouraged to journal and write their own prayers. As I look back on my journals over the last ten years or so it is amazing to see just how God has answered prayer ... how He has been to me all that I have ever needed ... how He really has constantly revealed Himself to be a faithful God of love.
Prayer for me is that secret place where I can commune as friend with Friend. No mask ... no pretence ... God knows everything there is to know about me and whether I tell Him or not, He knows ... He loves ... He understands. He knows everything that concerns me ... my deepest joys and woes and as a lover He wants me to share them with Him. Those issues that weigh heavy on my heart and mind in relation to others God constantly invites me to bring them to Him and reminds me:
'Thou art coming to a King,
Large petitions with thee bring.
For His grace and power are such
One can never ask too much.' (SASB 563)
If I am totally honest there are times when I find myself rebuked ... when I choose to carry the weight of the whole world on my shoulders and don't think to pray. But I thank God that I also have Jesus, a Great High Priest who prays for me. (John 17)
And so today I thank God for those who taught me to pray ... for those who pray for me ... for those who challenge me to pray, for those who have left an enormous legacy of prayer filled lives behind them and for those who have written their prayers that help me to pray today.
What will I leave behind me?
What will you leave behind you?
Do those closest to you know you are a person of prayer?
Do they know you love them enough to pray for them and at times maybe with them?
If you had prayer journalled the last ten years how would you see the hand of God on your life?
If others had the privilege of reading your journal what encouraging things might they learn.
Do you think to pray?
Should you think of journalling / writing your prayers, something to encourage you as you look back on your prayers. And maybe like General John Gowans we too could leave an enormous legacy for others...even if it is only our closest friends and family that may ever read our prayers.
Do you think to pray?
'O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!' (SASB 645)
Praying for you just now and as I do ... singing:
'O Lord hear my prayer
O Lord hear my prayer
When I call answer me.
O Lord hear my prayer
O Lord hear my prayer
Come and listen to me.'
Thank You Father God because You do just that!
Major Glad Ljungholm
(spouse of Former)
CO Exeter Temple Corps UKT